Decisions....

*i know this is gonna come off really evasive and secretive but bear with me*

Everyone has to make decisions......some are easy ....some require a lot of thought.....and some just downright take everything out of you.

Well a few weeks ago, I made a decision. That decision was to do something for me that would make me happy and put a smile on my face! This was a decision that wouldn't be popular......matter of fact......only a few people know what the decision is because everyone around me would have some type of commentary. And when you've already make up your mind about something you don't need everybody's two cents.....its just not their business.

I've been supremely happy with my decision...there have been a few moments when I've almost regretted it or unexpected emotions have come up about the decision and I wondered was it worth it.

See this decision is not one that is permanent.....i can reverse it at anytime.....but in doing that I feel like I'd be undoing work on MYSELF that I have put so much effort into. If I fail at this......i don't know what i could succeed at.

Anyway......my moment came tonight! The moment where I realized I made the right decision. In a few hours, I realized a lot about my decision. I faced some things about my decision and came to terms with some emotions.

THIS DECISION MAKES ME SMILE FROM EAR TO EAR........it makes me CRY......it makes me LAUGH OUT LOUD and to myself!! It's what I signed up for. I don't need any co-signers or any nay sayers.......i did this for ME.

so my decision is FINAL!!! And I couldn't be any happier!!!